February 2010
January 2010
If Winter Ends
I fell for the promise of a life with a purpose, but I know that that’s impossible now.
And so I drink to stay warm, and to kill selected memories, cause I just can’t think anymore about that or about her tonight.
and I give myself three days to feel better, or else I swear I’ll drive right off a fucking cliff, cause if I can’t learn to make myself feel better, how can I expect...
“I was half in love with her by the time we sat down. That’s the thing...”
– Holden Caulfield The Catcher In The Rye
Barack Obama
The man has just regained my respect. If the republicans don’t get in the way, and he completes his goals the world will be a much better place.
!
My feet are so cold right now I can’t feel them
that is all.
“But right now, all I see is a guy who’s so preoccupied with wondering what...”
– -Dr. Cox
Scrubs
“There’s still a kid inside but you grow up when you decide to do right,...”
“I am heaven sent, don’t you dare forget.
I am all you’ve ever...”
– Brand New
“Hey mom can you drive me back home?”
“This is your home.”
I’m sick of that response. You move every year mom, tell me which one is home again? At least at dad’s house I’m left alone to read my books & listen to my music in peace. I’ve also lived in my dad’s house for 15 years, you used to live there to remember?
“Remember what...
This has been a great weekend for everyone I know except me. I’m extremely happy for everyone but at the same time it’s forcing me to realize how I’m going to have to wait a long time for good things to happen to me.
I just wanna stay asleep all week, I can be whoever I want in my dreams.
“Your nose is bleeding
You’ve been lying to me
Come back to me the the...”
Arcade Fire- In The Back Seat
...
A girl just told me that the song “Nice Guys Finish Last” reminds her of me.
I don’t think I could suck at life anymore.
I should have started off acting like an arrogant jerk, but no I had to go and just act normal as if she could be interested in a guy like me. Instead I immediately get categorized as a “close friend”. This pattern has to stop. Obviously there is...
Life.
I have heat in my house.
100,000 people died in Haiti this week.
I wish I could:
sing
play an instrument
write poetry
write stories
go to Europe
understand abstract literary criticisms
have a better vocabulary
shrink.
help my friends
not be judgmental
not get old
have better hair
fix my smile
fix Jack Nicholson’s smile
get with girls instead of becoming really close with all of them
be good at a sport
not be lazy
have better posture
...
Do we only need to keep working because it pays...
If I could just stay asleep forever I would lead a much more exciting life.
I realized when I was 14 that most people’s lives consist of school, more school, work, settling down, retiring, and then dying. I never ever want to have that life, ever.
Since then I have gone through multiple theories, ideas, plots etc. to figure out what the right way to live life is. Recently I realized that...
Kreuzberg
There is a wall that runs right through me Just like this city I will never be joined What is this love? Why can I never hold it? Did it really run out? In those strangers bedrooms I have decided at 25 That something must change Saturday night, in East Berlin We took the U-Bahn to the east side gallery I was sure that id found love with this one lying with me Crying again in the hauptbahnof I have...
Soooo
Its 4am Saturday morning.
I haven’t seen the sun since it went down Thursday night.
Because of this, and some other reasons, I have not had a good day.
Actually you can’t really call this a “day” I’ve been awake from 5 pm till 4 am, that’s not much of a day.
Whatever you want to call it, it hasn’t been enjoyable.
But considering tomorrow...
“The power of a gun can kill
and the power of a fire can burn.
The power of a...”
– Tupac Shakur